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corie blunt
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Posted - 07/18/2008 :  13:52:50  Show Profile  Reply with Quote  Reply to Topic

I think the reasons i got schizophrenia is due to a number of reasons, mostly life stresses and drug abuse.

I was an advid on and off herb smoker since 16, breaking for 3-4 months in between. I also did ample amounts of mushrooms. There was one month which was a few months before my eppisode that i did mushrooms 2-3 weekends in a row. What lead me to doing that was copeing with stress from "break ups". She was my best friend for couple of years and we had just started to try to move pass that stage into a relationship but out of know where she just stop talking to be completely. I dont blame her for making me use drug cuase thats just how i handled it.

Stress from working it something completly differnet. Ive never really been able to keep a job for more then 1 year. It not that i got fired, i just couldn't take the stress and knowing that i wasnt doing anything to help a world that looks so lost. I remember when i was 20 (im 23 now) and i had a really good job working for a place called auto trade center where i was a rep for nissan and chrysler. I would pushing there off lease used vehicals to car sale men. I was good pretty at my job but every day i would wake up depressed and angry at the world for being so corupt and then one day i had this anxity attack while at work and started shaking uncontrolable and panicing about working in a cubile for the rest of my life. I quit a few month later. Tried to go back to school but that did work out to well. The on bright spot was that i learned about mediation and qi gong and i really belive that if i didnt start practing it would have either killed myself or had a schitzo break a few years eariler.

I kept going to school and in the fall semster of 2007 i took a spritual developement class at my community college. But half way through that my best friends mom died. She was like a second mom to me and i didnt take it well at all and ended up dropping out that semester. Instead of going back to school i moved to atlanta with my sister to help her through the end of her marriage. She found out her new husband was cheating on her and he really was trying to do anything to fix it. Really i think he while abit of emotional trama that he was hiding behind alcohol and just supressing in general. He and I ended getting into a couple of fights mainly about him threating my sister. Two were semi non confrontable ,even through would go for a knife, but Before the final one I had this dream. He and I were in this circle surounded by shadowed figues and i was trying to talk it out with him asking him why he was doing this and he wouldnt talk and walked away. Then My friends mom who had passed appreared and gave me hug...i felt so real.. i woke up crying. Later that night we got into it for a final time. He was once again threating my sister and i told him to quit then he charged at me and we went at it. He was quite a bit bigger than me but i was able to get him into a guillotine (if any of you watch ufc you know what im talking about). My sister told me to let him go cause she was freaking out and i did. He went up stairs came back 5 mins later..caught me as i was coming out of the bathroom whooped my ass threw me out into the into the street while i was blacked out and locked me out. He wouldnt let my sister leave. I could see him in there with a beer in one hand and a knife in the other yelling at my sister. I went to the neighbors and called the cops and really havent seen him since. I guess you would call that life stress so add that.

Then when i got back to arizona i had the stuff with at the top with the excessive mushroom abuse, weed smoking and relationship problems.

I really think weed just pushed it over the top. Cause for almost a few years i would get parnoid. It got to the point where i couldnt smoke with some of my closest friend cause it would make me trip out. I was good at keeping it in my head thought so i dont think they really knew.

A month before my break i went to new jersey and ocean city with a friend of mine to take a break from work cause i was really stressin there and i had only been there for 3 months (it was a call center). The trip was all good, we had some primo buds (norther lights) I really wouldnt even trip when i smoked unless i was with this guy pete. We went to ocean city with his wife and kid. He was like 50 something a cool dude but when i would smoke with him i know i was having some little mini episodes. But swiming in the ocean wiped all that out and we were right on the beach i could do that whenever ( god i miss that).

two weeks after i got back i had my episode. My friend was moving out his apt and i was helping and he was going to go on trip to california before he moved back in with his dad. We got finished moving his stuff and he asked me if i wanted to go again, which i said no. He said something along the lines of " now i can go to california" and i started breaking down the word california as "kill I for ya" and i stated to think that he was going to die and by letting him go i killed him..which i didnt lol. But It just got more intense after that.


Whats funny is that i got some poems/rhymes and a short story that i wrote before i had my episode. one is pretty prophetic.

know pride elaborated


His known pride begat thoughts of suicide.

and Brain surgery from ideas of perjury.

One time actor, court drama. "The Skits So Frentic".

mutlipulied to divide the tragedy and panic.

The Disguise devised when history lied

Condeming mystery as fake. The globe warmed and earth quaked.

Creating heart shake from the energies in symbolies.

He prayed for the time of lost memorys.

"Heal the will of thy enemies.

Best friends than worst ones."

And spoken steel was the sword of the tounge.

He adjusted, then thrusted! Sworn, preformed and mind blown.

Reborn as The Sun and evidence was shown, for man wrote it down as a poem.


" The God Light hues were used to craft such a weapon

Thor's hammer, to idea its conception.

""Weild for protection and Arm only as rod""


-The Blacksmith, Corrections know only as GOD-

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