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Posted - 04/20/2009 : 11:51:30
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I think growing up in a dysfunctional family and having a tough start figuring things out the difficult way (i.e. loosing my wife, custody of my child and self-destructing the job all in 2001). I’d like to start by saying that the battle with depression and anxiety has been an on going process until recent findings. Though I do not have extensive experience taking anti-depressant /anti-anxiety medications, I do know myself and feel that I have an in-depth understanding of many others observed over the years. I first started taking an anti-depressant called Paxil, and I must say the initial band-aid allowed me to battle helpless thoughts. However something was missing and, after decreasing then stopping the dosage, the zap of the initial detox almost made me think I had to go back on the drug. If it wasn’t for the anger of taking the drug in the first place I would not have exercised through and re-trained my nervous system. It wasn’t until 2006 that I learned of Zoloft as another band-aid for depression and it’s seemly null side affects, I started taking it on a regular basis (for about 6 months). Zoloft seemed to be the cure all as it stimulated the senses and the need for a balanced life (i.e. work and play) so much so that it was almost, at times, tough to sleep. So, I began to supplementing my drug medication regiment with Ambien. I remember my step Dad who was an orthopedic surgeon once saying “be careful of the anxiety medications; too many prescriptions can make one not know which way is up - confused”. As of a year ago had been prescription free and then in November of 2008 found myself out of work. With out any exercise program, and lack of, an already depleted, Family support, began to have severe anxiety. I did not have medical insurance at the time, so called a friend asking if I could use a few tablets of his wife’s anti-anxiety medicine. He said all she had were some Ativan. I thought well that could work until I get some Zoloft again. I borrowed a few Ativan tablets. And, before I could locate a doctor’s office that would accept proof of unemployment as a justifiable means for health care coverage for non-insured, a few tables turned into five (1 Ativan per day - 1mg tablets). Shortly after that I started developing a severe ringing in my ears. After locating a prescription for Zoloft and weining myself off of the Ativan the sensitivity of my ears had decreased and the ringing had turned to a slight buzzing. Now after posting my experience Ativan on some knowledge forums and postings removed, I’ve decided to push a little more by writing and posting this on as many discussion forums as I can. My love for technology and lack of funding to fight a pharmaceutical giant, and an inspiration while listening to a service at church I’ve come up with this suggestion. Three basic rules for those who are determined to get healthy again! Get some churchin in your life (at least once a week). For those who are quick to dismiss a biblical possibility and thousands seeing the miracles of Christ you better think again. Just try it, exercise at least 3 times per week (gradually get to 15 minutes per day). Once you start seeing “the writing on the wall” and the visible change in others & the energy you bring, the self-discipline to make your health happen comes a little easier. I’ve started going to church again, and though tough to exercise after a long day, noticed that I’m sleeping better and feeling stronger through out the day. And it seems a simple prayer, asking from guidance and strength from the heart goes a long further than I had once thought in self and especially loved ones.
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