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peewee
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 Posted - 10/01/2008 : 23:22:09
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My first pdoc said I had schizophrenia to my mom but she stayed in denial. She never told me. She insisted that I take my medication but the work said I must go off it because I'm looking like a zombie and my job would be on the line.
I chose to live with the symptoms without any medication and my pdoc said there was nothing more he could do for me because I didn't want help.
Later I sought help from other doctors asking for help but the problem was I was telling them what I was experiencing in depth. They just said I need to see another doctor and that I'm suffering from depression. When I went to see a pdoc he would just make notes and give me anti-depressants. The problem still wouldn't leave me. I went to church and prayed and had many people pray over me but to no avail. I did everything I could to get help - eventually I stayed away from doctors thinking they are just using up my medical funds and they are not taking me seriously.
But then someone would give me hope and tell me that they can refer me to another doctor who is very good and they would refer me to another doctor and eventually there was one doctor that could help me and prescribe the right medication.
However being told that I was schizophrenic took time to sink in because I wanted to say "I'm not schizophrenic, these voices are real - they are driving me mad, they are using telepathy to stay in contact with me at all times"
But yes, the reality was that I am schizophrenic and I couldn't refuse the help that the doctor was offering me. He knew best and he did.  |
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I wanted help but the doctors couldn't help ...
