I'm not sure I'm in the right place, I'm just trying to get some perspective.
I started having delusional thoughts and grandiose ideas back in highschool. My first year college (and most likely in highschool too) I started having hallucinations and the psychosis escalated. I had no clue that I was hearing voices or that I was delusional until I was taken home by parents to see a doctor. Slowly I started to put the pieces together (with the help of an antipsychotic). I was diagnosed with psychotic depression but I'm not sure it's the right diagnosis.
I experience chronic fatigue and amotivation. I am basically useless without medication. I'm taking 200 mg provigil, 300 mg wellbutrin, and 10 mg lexapro, and it helps me get through the day but I don't think it's getting at the heart of the problem.
My question is what are the negative symptoms of schizophrenia like? How do they differ from symptoms of depression? I don't feel depressed but everyone else seems to think I am. I tell people I'm constantly tired and I get the feeling they don't believe me.