Is any of this real? or am I still in hospital because I went into shock?...I keep on believing that this is real but then flashes of still being in hospital come to me and I can feel everything happening at those moments as if it is real...it makes me wonder whether I am still in shock and have come up with all this to escape from my life back then and have made up a future of what I think will happen...please can anyone help me before I loose my mind?