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guru
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 Posted - 12/31/2014 : 04:36:27
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I have been through thought broadcasting, and the panic and anxiety attacks that lead from it, and, at some point, thought that people in a restaurant or any public space and on TV were talking about me. It feels like I'm the victim of some curse due to my sin and hidden darkness. I shrug off the masses, and prefer to stay a hermit, precisely because of this identification with 'coincidences' people say that relate to what I' m thinking ' in the air' - it's scary, and I shirk in fear with my perennial problem that people are 'reading my thoughts.' I can't shrug it off; it seems like a curse. So the best medication I've found, besides still accusing symptoms of psychosis besides heavy dosages of meds, is ' not to think too much.' Even though I can logically explain and convince myself that mind-reading is impossible, emotively and irrationally I still persist on the fact that people can 'drop a line' and know exactly what's on my mind.....Sincerely I have nothing to hide, even though my thoughts are skewed and off-center, somewhat problematic and unorthodox, but my subconscious dictates a higher level of awareness where I see and feel transparently, and it is a venerable Hell- sometimes I just want to disappear from public occasions......the mind is very tricky, and 'strange' perception- borrowing the expression from the Doors- even more......  |
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Thought reading and panic
