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computer_chip1
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 Posted - 09/20/2016 : 18:09:40
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There is a spiritual side. I have been taught to pray fervently and unceasingly for what I want, and God will answer. That is what I think I have been doing for years. In a way, that is my life--my years with schizophrenia. I hold a dream that I can contribute in some way, perhaps very small, to the improvement or cure of this serious illness. It could be through my experiences or through my efforts. I have been making efforts for years, writing, reading, praying. With just a little encouragement I will keep trying to find a way to unravel the mysteries and lessen the suffering.
One way I work on schizophrenia is to write here. It is not to "meditate on my navel."
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| computer_chip1
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Posted - 09/22/2016 : 04:02:42
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Thank you, Fleurette, for your reply and your kindness. It seems the number of people who read this particular site has dwindled. Everyone is going to the social discussion "for all" page. I think this "general discussion about schizophrenia" is now a separate page and has to be accessed separately--hence our few viewers.
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| guru
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Posted - 12/11/2016 : 07:31:47
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[quote]Originally posted by computer_chip1
There is a spiritual side. I have been taught to pray fervently and unceasingly for what I want, and God will answer. That is what I think I have been doing for years. In a way, that is my life--my years with schizophrenia. I hold a dream that I can contribute in some way, perhaps very small, to the improvement or cure of this serious illness. It could be through my experiences or through my efforts. I have been making efforts for years, writing, reading, praying. With just a little encouragement I will keep trying to find a way to unravel the mysteries and lessen the suffering.
One way I work on schizophrenia is to write here. It is not to "meditate on my navel."
Computer chip,
I was so lost spiritually when I was young, and was certainly a prodigal child. I was 'empty,' living off spliffs and liquor, and let in the wrong 'friends' in. And I did have 'an angel of mercy to see me through all my sins.' A had a very vague and shallow view of Christ. I had it 'all' - popularity, social life, good college, girlfriend - but truly I had nothing, nothing at all.
A Higher Law dictates our fates. Although a 'curse' at first, my outbreak of schizophrenia actually, and it was, purposively, the driving force that led me to Christ.
My sickness became a blessing in the spiritual aspect. Mental illness opened my eyes to a far richer reality of Spirit which replenished my life, and turned me away from false idols and nothing really worthwhile.
O.K. - for the skeptic out there - doesn't one accept faith in a sober and realistic perspective? From groundedness? O.K. - I accepted what I knew was Real from deliria- funny paradox, isn't it? ; )
They say that many times, with prayer, we actually lose things, like pride and Ego.....what remained? A single-willed 'core' that is adamantly strong and resilient, and humble. This was the pay-off to all the false things I thought I possessed. Schizoaffective opened a portal that I do not want to shut down, for it makes me real, and it is not a door I would by any means want to close. |
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