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wanderz
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Posted - 01/09/2007 :  23:41:58  Show Profile  Visit wanderz's Homepage  Reply with Quote  Reply to Topic
This is really difficult... It's really hard when you can see and hear people responding to your thoughts and emotions judgingly, and critically all the time. And you can't talk to the person about it because if you do they just say it isn't real. But how can I disbelieve something that I can see, hear, and feel every day in my soul? How could I ever trust anyone??
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e-pea
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Posted - 01/11/2007 :  05:00:01  Show Profile  Reply with Quote  Reply to Topic
I know. Doesn't it suck?

I get really exhausted trying to figure out what is really going on sometimes. It makes me want to avoid the broken social scene (LOL) all together.

I have reacted before, to things thought-said by those i know and total strangers. It is never good. But keeping it to myself is causing me to withdraw further away from the outside world.

My medicatio has helped with this but has not really dealt with it completely. The good thing is, I can rationalize it better to myself than before I think.

Do you ever find your own thoughts being spoken aloud? That is by far the worst for me, I can protect myself from the thoughts of others to some degree but if I feel like my thoughts are audible, it paralyses me.

STOP THE ABANDONMENT OF CHRISTMAS PETS!
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mlv83
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Posted - 01/15/2007 :  00:24:57  Show Profile  Reply with Quote  Reply to Topic
I know exactly what your talking about. Like when I have a thought in my head about someone close and that they are there, they respond back. And when Im at the store and my thoughts would go hey wire, I would hear them repeating what my thoughts are saying to them. So I also am afraid to ask if they can read my mind because I would know that they are lying. I couldnt believe my family when they say they can not read my mind because I keep thinking that the whole world is hiding the truth from me.
You keep I keep believing the I'm the chosen one and that this is the power of God and that this is the evolution for human kind. Iwish anything in this world that this is schizo instead know this is real. This thought broadcasting is my reality and that I know its the truth until someone tell its now. And if its not, I would cry with relief and happiness and going out to get a life.
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wanderz
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Posted - 01/16/2007 :  16:12:42  Show Profile  Visit wanderz's Homepage  Reply with Quote  Reply to Topic
quote:
Originally posted by mlv83

I know exactly what your talking about. Like when I have a thought in my head about someone close and that they are there, they respond back. And when Im at the store and my thoughts would go hey wire, I would hear them repeating what my thoughts are saying to them. So I also am afraid to ask if they can read my mind because I would know that they are lying. I couldnt believe my family when they say they can not read my mind because I keep thinking that the whole world is hiding the truth from me.
You keep I keep believing the I'm the chosen one and that this is the power of God and that this is the evolution for human kind. Iwish anything in this world that this is schizo instead know this is real. This thought broadcasting is my reality and that I know its the truth until someone tell its now. And if its not, I would cry with relief and happiness and going out to get a life.



It's interesting that you say you think it's an evolutionary thing because I've thought that might be what it is too. I was just wondering, how did this whole thing start for you because I am determined to get some answers about thought broadcasting. I really don't see how it could not be real because it's as obvious and real to me as the wind blowing might be to someone else.

~Wanderz
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mlv83
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Posted - 01/16/2007 :  21:59:14  Show Profile  Reply with Quote  Reply to Topic
Well it all started smoking marijuana every night walking through the neighborhoods early in the morning. Then one day I heard my sister's voice in my head, and at the time she was living in L.A., California. So I thought I could telepathically talk to her here in Texas. Then my friend's voices were in my head and I thought I could do the same. Later on that month, I was hearing all kinds of voices that were my people, which my parents are from Tonga, but I was born here in TX. It gotten worse, so I was hospitalized and after a couple of months on meds the voices were gone, but that thought of people reading my mind was still there. I also posted something in the General Discussion called Suffering from thought broadcasting or Reading my mind.
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clearmind
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Posted - 01/18/2007 :  12:27:24  Show Profile  Reply with Quote  Reply to Topic
Three years ago I started out thinking my thoughts
were being "broadcast" out loud so that I thought people could hear
what was going on inside my head.

After my delusion broke I could see the difference. It may seem
like people are reacting to your thoughts. I even heard them
speaking to me in response to what I was thinking. I realize
now that: I HAD NO POWER OF CLAIRVOYANCE, I HAD NO WEAPONS AIMED
AT ME, NONE OF MY NEIGHBORS WERE OUT TO GET ME, NO ONE COULD READ
MY THOUGHTS, I WAS NOT THE SPECIAL ONE, I WAS NOT ON THE NEXT
LEVEL OF EVOLUTION, I was just ordinary me. MY hyper enlarged
self was just part o my mania.

My thoughts were not being broadcast anywhere. The problem was
that I could hear my thoughts but I could see that no one could really
hear what was going on inside my head. The woman next to me on the
subway could not hear me cursing even though I was screaming
things inside my head. My outloud thoughts were not really
outloud, but I could hear them outloud, but that is part of the
disease.

There is another problem. I was very old (50's)when this happened
and when I read that thought broadcasting is part of a disease
I BELIEVED IT and MY DELUSION BROKE. The problem is when you are
much younger, teens or twenties, it is very hard to tell a
young person that their reality and landscape is not real
even under "normal" circumstances. If you tell them that a doctor
will be considered either wrong or one of "the enemy".
The problem with breaking a delusion is that one does not
believe anything outside that delusion.

QUESTION IT AS IT IS HAPPENING!!! TRY, TRY TO KNOW THAT THERE IS
SOMETHING ELSE BEYOND WHAT SEEMS REAL EVEN IF IT KEEPS HAPPENING!!!

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clearmind
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Posted - 01/18/2007 :  12:51:16  Show Profile  Reply with Quote  Reply to Topic
"I CAN'T THINK BECAUSE MY BEDS ON FIRE" are the words of a song
and the problem with what I just posted above is that my mind
is not clear and I could NOT QUESTION MY DELUSION WHILE IT WAS
HAPPENING PERIOD. It was easy after it broke but I would never
do it in the middle of it. The best I could do was to TRY and
ignore the voices barking at me and judging me.

So whats the answer? Is the only answer to take meds with side
effects?? I am not going to wait for this thing to happen to me
again!!! I have got to get off my lazy seroquel ass and find a way out.
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clearmind
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Posted - 01/18/2007 :  13:50:10  Show Profile  Reply with Quote  Reply to Topic
And while i could not question my delusion while it was happening
i did BELIEVE IT when i read something that contradicted my
delusional thought process. It was like a ZEN Koan. It cannot be
explained and yet it was so simple. But things like this have happened
before like when i asked the housekeeper at the YMCA, where i was
staying, if there was anyone in the next room(who were aiming a
microwave oven at me through the wall). Naturally she said there
was no one there and the voices went away because I saw that there
was no there there. The voices went away for awhile.

WHAT IF THERE HAPPENED TO BE PEOPLE IN THE NEXT ROOM?????
I would have said to the housekeeper "Yep, I knew it and
I KNOW they are aiming that microwave and trying to kill me". The
voices would have kept on. Even when they "left" "they", the voices, were screaming to me that the housekeeper was lying and that
she was part of the plot to destroy my health with focused
energy. It was as if the voices were alive and had a separate
consciousness and were mad that i HAD EXPOSED THEM. (Thus the
idea of devils and spirits.) i chose to BELIEVE the housekeeper
without checking the room myself and the voices went away at least
for awhile. That was also the day after Pope Paul died and i
went to mass earlier that morning. It gave me the special grace i
needed to NOT BELIEVE in the voices. There were no spirits.
i did not have a devil inside of me. What i had was a
condition that would get worse before it "broke"...
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Quicksilver
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Posted - 05/21/2007 :  23:27:12  Show Profile  Reply with Quote  Reply to Topic
I used to think marijuana was cool. About a year after I smoked Hawaiian kind, I started to have the thought broadcasting delusion. The last time I smoked I needed to go to the hospital to get handful of xanax I was so paranoid. I don't think they should legalize it. Adderal too is ****ed. Now I am ****ed. But I did it to my self, and now I am going to fight like hell to believe what I WANT to believe; through hours of affirmations. Throw enough crap at the wall and hopefully cover the wall.
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matt1987
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Posted - 05/22/2007 :  09:24:23  Show Profile  Reply with Quote  Reply to Topic
I get this too, and have even had the neighbors yell at me about it. :(

I'm scared to get a job or go back to college because I hear real nasty and perverted voices, and then 'echo' them.
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Truthfinderz
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Posted - 06/25/2011 :  21:31:14  Show Profile  Reply with Quote  Reply to Topic
Hello everyone. I first want to tell you all that I love you and that the only reason I am writing this is because I believe you have a right to the truth, which I myself have been searching for for years. I have been replying on as many of these forums as I can find and have even been updating wikipedia to get this out where I can. People can hear your thoughts. There is no question about it. I am sure you will believe this because I know that you already know deep down that it is the truth. I cannot prove it to you over this blog, but I just wanted to let you know (for those of you desperate for help) that it IS real. I have heard countless pieces of evidence to prove it to myself and still had trouble accepting it (the most blatant of which being someone saying aloud in a public place after a tirade of my thoughts, "Yeah, God gave you this as a conscience." I struggled to accept it for a long time, telling myself it was impossible. There is no way on this Earth that people would be able to hear each others' thoughts. Even now when I really think about it, it seems ridiculous. I cannot give you any explanations or reasons, but I can assure you without any doubt that it is real. I tell you this because I can hear other peoples' thoughts as well. People rarely think anything because everyone can hear them. I have also been told by my close friend and roomate, although not to my face, but in a quiet whispered conversation at a table, "I'm inside your heart. I can hear what you're thinking." This was only after a huge rant which I had been thinking, where I had been thinking something to the effect of "If you will just tell me once that it is real, I will stop all of this."("This" being some very angry and lengthy rants, inside my head of course, in which I was just being very hateful and angry, probably due to my confused desperation. Oh, and after the rant, my roomate came out of his room and in passing by me, stated, "That took balls." when I was doing nothing that would make someone say something like that, and I knew it was because he could hear my mental harangue.) I am not entirely sure what that statement about the heart means, but I have also come to know that it is true. Somehow, even if you are not thinking any words as thoughts, but are having strong emotions, and when your heart feels heavy, people know. They sometimes say things like "It's a little hot in here," whenever you are having a strong emotion such as anger or anxiety. I wish I could tell you why or how this is possible because believe me, I am dying to sit down with someone and actually have a discussion to learn everything that is really going on, but they simply refuse to be straightforward with this information. For the life of me, I can't understand why that is because almost everyone seems to know about it, and what could it hurt two people talking about it who already know it to be true. But as I said, I don't really think I have to prove it to you who are on this site because you really already know. But more than simply to get this information out, I wanted to offer some comfort to those who are having difficulty in coming to terms with this. I know it may seem horrible or even unbearable at times. To have your every waking thought scrutinized and judged by the people around you, and having no form of privacy in your life whatsoever can be very terrifying. What I really wanted to let you know is that I care about you. Whatever terrible things may be going through your mind, and believe me I have my share of them every day and very often think of suicide as a way to end this agony (not simply as an escape, but to relieve those around me of my "sickness"), life is worth living. People may judge you or even seem to hate you for what you think sometimes, but really they could not care less. It is a game to them, I'm sorry to say. They seem to be here to help at times, and at others to pull you down, but really all they care about is you being "cool" with everyone and being social. I have felt like I hated everyone for this, most of all because I could not get the truth out of anyone. So I really wanted to let those of you who seek this knowledge to be at ease, at least in that aspect. I think knowing is worth something even though it is a scary thing. But the best thing you can do is to not let it overwhelm you, however difficult that may seem. Try to be calm, and remember who you really are. Those terrible thoughts that seem to crop up simply because you don't want them to do not control you. You can recognize them and feel bad about them, but do not let them bring you down. As I said, people are very forgiving and this game they play is easy enough if you just be cool. I promise you everyone else will get over any horrible thoughts you have before you will, even if those thoughts may be about them. People are willing to love, so long as you can maintain yourself and not be brought down. Also, after a while you will be able to control yourself to where you can talk to yourself as to mask your thoughts from others. It is not easy to do, but if you think deeply enough,(deeper thoughts, I have found cannot be heard) with a clear head, and possibly whisper to yourself, you will not be heard. So that's it. I hope that this will help those of you who are possibly in the position I was in not too long ago, which is not to say that I'm not still dealing with it because as I said I still have some horrible thoughts. All we can do, though, is know that those thoughts are not who we are and move on and live in peace and love. Again, please don't let it overwhelm you. Life can be a beautiful thing if you are truly living it.
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chouchou555
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Posted - 09/16/2011 :  05:16:48  Show Profile  Reply with Quote  Reply to Topic
Hello everyone, I'm new here.... I also have the same problem; I think I have Thought Broadcasting... I feel (notice) that anyone can read my mind... sometimes when in the presence of people, I hear them speaking of something relating of what I'm thinking, or responding to my thoughts; it feels uncomfortable and hard to deal with those situations!

Even some things that I find bizarre; that when watching TV, "some" pubs (for exemple) are presenting their products but I notice that there's some things "in these pubs" that are related to what I did a day ago or more!
The same thing is applied to when visiting some "daily updated blogs" on the internet....

LIKE THEY FIND INSPIRATION IN WHAT I'M DOING OR OF WHAT I WAS THINKING!!!

I also notice that much of the time there's a new "subject" that some medias,blogs, peolple,etc.... talking about "that same subject"!

with some "certains" words: smoking, cats, dancing, thelephone that rings, sleeping dog, hair, rose....

and some people in conversation trying me to believe that there's pictures of me taken and are in reseaux socials like FACEBOOK (even that they are taken in some publics places in the "absence" of a CAMERA)

And there's alot more.... I couldn't find answers to all what's happening to me, I'm confusied!

Hope to find some advice here!!

THANKS
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dynamo
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Posted - 08/12/2013 :  21:11:28  Show Profile  Reply with Quote  Reply to Topic
Hello everyone! You're all invited to my new TB forum!

http://thoughtbroadcasting.freeforums.org

If you have any question about it, you can send me an email: diamondnights9@hotmail.com

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