Maybe if I go to the psychiatrist the therapist gave me to go he will believe me. She said if I don't like him I can go to someone different. The paranoid schizophenria never gave me thoughts of suicide but these seizures do. I had those thoughts all day today. It is 3:42 a.m. in the morning and I had another grand mal seizure at 2:00 a.m. This one was mild. Put me in a moving car as a passenger at night and I will have at least five complex partial seizures. I never drive at night. I don't have any short term memory at all.