I'm worried about Jackie and our marriage. I'm worried about the Benefits/social security situation. I'm worried about Nuclear war. I know it isn't likely to be Britain that launches its nukes right at the moment, but India and Pakistan might use them over Kashmir, and North Korea might use them and Hamas might plant a biological/chemical weapon and induce Israel to use them. I'm worried that US/UK might use them betwween 2030- and 2055 over declining world oil reserves.
I'm worried about the greenhouse effect and Amazon deforestation. I'm worried. I'm worried the CIA may be bugging my house and planting spyware on my computer because of my politics. I'm worried about them digging the road up in the nearby street to lay listening cables to trap politcal subversives (maybe)
I have taken a valium about an hour ago and its made things a little less bad, and I hope it really is paranoia and that the CIA aren't really trying to kill me.
My support worker was thing of phoning the crisis team today, but I said no. I feel I may be having contact with the spirit world and I might want to see the spiritualist church. I felt spirits of dead sorcerors and and my parents might be trying to contact me telepathy, but I am not sure if that's my illness or if its real.
You are worried about so much you don't have control over. Is there anything to get your mind off these thoughts? I hope you consider seeing your pdoc soon to get the help that you need. Don't you agree that it could very well be your illness making you think all these worries?
Take good care of yourself. I hope you feel better soon.